Closet. A part of me.

I decided to write this blog entry in two languages, English and my country’s language, Filipino (from Philippines)

IN ENGLISH
Why are other people so lucky? The person they’re loving loves them back. Some already met their soulmate and turns out, it is just beside them and then, there’s me. Every day, I’m wondering whether I’ve already met my future partner or will my love interest ever notice me. Why are some so lucky? There is also a reason why everything for me is difficult…. ’cause I’m bisexual. My family hates LGBT, especially my two sisters. They find it disgusting. My parents might stop supporting me in finishing my education so I can’t take risk to come out. In my circle of friends, I was able to reveal my true self to only three. They felt happy, amazed, and shocked. They’re happy since I was able to accept myself and understand my emotions deeper. Amazed, since I had the guts to tell them who really I am and what I like tho it was only through messenger. Lastly, they were shocked because when we were in grade school and high school, guys admire me and my actions are very childish and all I did is to laugh things out. They never imagine and expect I was bisexual but still, nothing change between us four and they love me even more.

IN TAGALOG (Filipino)
Bakit ang swerte ng ibang tao? Mahal sila ng taong mahal nila. Yung iba naman, nasa tabi or nakilala na nila yung taong para sa kanila. Samantalang ako, nag iisip parin kung kailan kaya darating yung para sakin. Umaasang baka mapansin ako ng taong gusto ko. Bakit ang swerte swerete nila? Isa pang rason kung bakit ako sobrang nahihirapan, ayun ay dahil bisexual ako. Hindi ko maamin sa pamilya ko dahil sobrang nandidiri sila sa LGBT. Ayoko naman mapatigil sa pag-aaral ko magalit lalo na mga kapatid ko kaya mag tatago muna ako. Sa mga kaibigan ko naman, may nasabihian na akong tatlo. Natuwa sila, namangha, at nagulat sa balitang dala ko. Natuwa silang nakikilala ko na sarili ko at niyakap ko na kung ano ba talaga ako kahit na patago muna ako sa marami pero atleast may tatlong taong nakakaalam. Namangha, dahil nagawa ko umamin sa kanila kahit na sa messenger ko lang nasabi. Nagulat sila dahil akala nila straight ako dahil sa mga nalink sa akin dati ng highschool at gradeschool. Ang kilos ko rin ay sobrang makulit at puro tawa kaya hindi nila inakalang mag kakagusto ako sa babae.

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